|Picking up the pieces of my life...|
1. I am a stress eater. When I'm stressed out, I self-medicate with food. I didn't actually realize that I had been doing this until it was the middle of June and I had put back on 8 of the 10 lbs that I lost since starting the Redbook Experiment. My workouts were just as intense and frequent, but my stress eating was out of control.
2. Stress effects cortisol levels. This is something that my friend Shan reminded me of. I was griping about how hard I was working and how I was counting every calorie to try to fix the mess I made from stress-eating in June only to have minimal to no results, when she pointed out that I was/am stressed out. I felt kinda stupid and had one of those "duh" moments.
It's the truth.
I'm very stressed out. I'm dealing with something right now that I can't give details on, but can be compared to being buried. I feel like I have been living life buried underground, only I had grown accustomed to it and adapted. Recently, I discovered that I don't have to buried. I caught glimpse of my life above ground, and now have to begin working to dig out of this grave. Hopefully with this new revelation, some of the stress I feel of the "unknown" will be lifted. One can only hope. (sorry for being so cryptic)
Meanwhile my cortisol levels are off the chart, therefore making it more difficult for me to focus, my blood sugar is all wonky, and [sigh] I gain weight (especially in the belly).
Perhaps you're one of those who thinks I'm making up excuses for my laziness and lack of self-control, but to you I say, "Screw you. You don't know what I'm dealing with. And as far as laziness is concerned, if you could see how hard I work--for the past few weeks I've been running stairs for 45 minutes 3x a week (a workout provided by Padma Lakshmi via the Jan. issue REDBOOK, which is workout that is the bane of my existence, yet showed the most results) and training for another 5K too."
Whew. What a mouthful. In anycase, here are the results of my weigh-ins over the last several weeks. (Remember how I'm still in the Xocai weight loss challenge? Two weeks left.)
Thursday, June 30th
Weight: 171.2 (This is always about 4-5 lbs more than what my scale says, b/c I weigh myself at the beginning of the day in my skivvies. The Xocai weigh-ins are at 8pm and I can't show up in my undies to weigh-in. That'd be AWKWARD.)
Waist: 36" (This is different than where I was measuring for The Redbook Experiment. I had always measured at the smallest part of my waist, and the Xocai rep measures us around the bellybutton, which is slightly wider than where I measure.)
Thursday, July 7th
Waist: 34 and 3/4"
Total Results: - 1.8 lbs and - 1.25" off the waist
Waist: Forgot to get this measured
Total Results: - .8 lbs.
Thursday July 21th
Thursday July 28th
Waist: 32 and 1/2"
Total Results: - 2 lbs. and - 3.5" off my waist.
It seems as though I'm losing way more in inches than lbs. I'm sort of OK with that.
I'd rather have both. =)
I have 2 more weigh-ins. I hope to lose at least another 5 lbs and 2-3 more inches. We'll see. I'm reigning in the stress-eating. I just hope the cortisol cooperates too.